i realised today that the easiest way to enjoy life is to think the same as everyone else and be the same as everyone else. because once you think differently to everyone, you're not the same as everyone. you'll see how differently everyone thinks and how different everyone is and how fucking stupid they are and this will most definitely make you kill yourself.

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 baby spinach, wild rocket, baby tomatoes, mushroom, balsamic, tahini.

globe tomatoes, pear tomatoes, vine tomatoes, beef tomatoes, plum tomatoes, cherry tomatoes, cherry plum, yellow plum tomatoes, tomato, tomatoes, tomatoed. no matter the shape, no matter the size. whatever the tomato. it's always good.

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baby spinach, wild rocket, celery, cucumber, tomato, pumpkins seeds, tahini, balsamic. 

in my mind. the only way to be able eat all the foods that you desire in an abundance that its satisfying, without becoming an unhealthy beast, is by changing what it is that you would like to consume. all our choices begin in the mind. temptation, wrong thoughts, bad decisions. temporary indulgence feeds a lifetime habit. so cleanse your palate, change your mind. clearer thoughts make better decisions. it is important to know the difference between being satisfied and feeling shit.

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primark primark.

perfect pregnant outfit. i couldn't give less of a fuck to what i look like these days. i am old.

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coconut, coconut water.

fresh raw electrolyte-packed hydration makes the best morning replenishment.

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knees weak, arms heavy, palms sweaty, frustrated and things begin to itch. then, a chill, an overwhelming sensation rushes through you, tingling and then numb. you shiver, its coming. you feel it, you want it, its becoming harder to breathe. please. yes. please just. its here. you gasp. explosion. its done. relief. hallelujah i sneezed. was pollen excruciatingly high today or what. i've been sneezing my fucking face off for the best part of all day. christ. worst bout of hayfever since being alive.

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jaffa oranges, satsumas, apricots, vine tomatoes, peaches, nectarines, kiwis, bananas.

fruit for breakfast, fruit for lunch, fruit before dinner, after dinner, during dinner. fruit all the time. high in sugar, high in carbs. highly energising, revitalising. high in fibre, minerals, nutrients. highly filling, highly satisfying, highly beneficial.

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things have become a little suffocating as of late and so i decided to enter maniac mode and go batshit mad crazy at my room. i've thrown out literally, virtually, pretty much everything. declutter delete detach remove. it feels so nice to bin shit. i feel mentally lighter. clarity clarity clarity. theres not much you need to survive.

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primark crop top, topshop jeans, vintage bag.

things don't always happen for a reason. we just like to make reason for everything that happens. the truth is that things happen, and some of the things that happen do not derive from any reason. but we don't believe that this could happen and we can't accept that there is no purpose. so when something we expect to happen does not happen, we reason it with a reason. but to be honest, if something doesn't happen, then it's because you didn't let it happen. because everything always happens. reason or no reason- things will happen. no matter what. nothing is infinite and we should make the most of everything that could should and would happen if we let it.

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