i want to go and see a lavender field and sunflower field and poppy field. swim in a lake, shower under a water fall, bathe in a hot spring, cleanse in mud, immerse into a turquoise ocean. i want to lay on white sand. see a flock of pink flamingos, ride an elephant. these are the interesting things in life. not some shitty party in a club made so dark to stop us from seeing thinking and realising just how hideous everyone everything is. this was my realisation this weekend whilst being in a shitty dark club with hideous people.